I went into the first booth and dropped my quarter. I watched my first xxx video. I had jacked off a lot of times to my dads porn mags but had never...seen it on film. You would think after watching my mom and dead fuck so much that a movie would be a waste of time. There was something about being in a booth in a adult video store that just made it more interesting. I watched a girl give a guy a blow job then he went at her doggie. The camera was right up in her crotch and i got to see up. I went to the basement and got out every box and album of photos I could find and one by one I looked at every photo. The first thing I notice was that no one in my family besides me had blue eyes, I found this slightly troublesome but not a big deal. What really got me worried was the fact that I could not find a single picture of me before the age of one, nor could I find one of my mother will she was pregnant with me. Since I did manage to find several photos of my mom pregnant with Lilith. It would be great to see you and all too.I'm a lot different now though. I lost a ton of weight (OK - never reallyweighed a ton :-P but, you know), and I wear my hair different and otherstuff. You might really freak, but I hope not. Anyway, I'd like you tosee anyway.But Mike, what I've got to do is figure out if I do it just because Iwant to be different from what I was, or if what I was always wasdifferent from me really. And OK, that makes a lots more since in myhead, and it's kind of what. The wrestling had its perks, it opened up my panty fetish which had progressed to me searching out my mothers used panties, hers were nicer, better quality unlike Val’s plain cotton type. It also brought my relationship with Val to a whole new level, something I think we were both happy with.So lets fast forward to the last week of the holidays, Val and Alex had gone camping with the school so I was home alone which if I am honest was a luxury after the last few weeks. I was just chilling out.